Tag Archive | Fibromyalgia

Sometimes

sometimes

 

 

I got this off of a Facebook page that I go to when I can because I have Fibromyalgia….

https://www.facebook.com/pages/What-is-it-like-to-live-wFibromyalgia-Chronic-PainFatigue/312593338824037

Sometimes it is very hard to do both. Especially if you are like me and have to look at scars every day. I do my darndest to forgive him because I am a christian woman, but it is very hard to forgive and forget with the scars staring at you daily. What are your thoughts?

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Today is a NEW day

a new day

 

 

As most of you know who follow my blog…..not only have I been abused, but I also have Fibromyalgia. The Fibro was brought on by all of the abuse.

Last week I was FINALLY able to get to a Neurologist. I have severe migraines and blurry vision. I also fall alot and my arms, hands, and toes will go numb. So they want to do an MRI. They MRI is to check for pinched nerves and bulging discs in my spine and also to check for a brain tumor  for my migraines.

I will be very worried until the MRI is done and I get the results. I know that I should leave it in God’s hands, but I can’t help but worry.

As for the NEW DAY, I have decided that with all the problems the abuse has brought me, I am not going to let it control my life anymore. I am taking over so look out world!

IT IS TIME FOR BRIGHTER TOMORROWS!!!!!!

Pain

hurt

 

It is true what it says…DO NOT GIVE UP! And I do know how you feel. But unfortunately, the feelings and the tears do not stop. At least for me they hav’nt. Mine are not tears or feelings because I still love him but because tears and feelings of pain. I see the physical scars and I have flash backs. I have Fibrolmyalgia because of him and I live with the very dibilitating pain from that EVERY day. I used to “woman up” and try to deal with it on my own….because I thought there was shame  in going to see a psychiatrist. But within the last couple of months it is like I have had a huge epiphany or something…..I realized that I can’t do this on my own anymore! It has been 7 years….and I still have trouble sleeping, I still look over my shoulder, I still have flash backs, I still get depressed and cry for no reason. Only difference now is, is that I have the most amazing man in the world….and he accepts me the way that I am and helps me through all of my issues. So don’t give up!

Hard Night

Fibromyalgia Awareness

Fibromyalgia Awareness (Photo credit: Kindreds Page)

Last night was a very hard night for me. I tossed and turned all night. Not only from the nightmares and night sweats but from my Fibromyalgia, which my Neurologist seems to think I got from all the horrible abuse I went through. Sometimes I wish bad things on my ex for the things that he did to me leaving me with physical scars to look at every day of my life. But now I have Fibromyalgia which has only gotten worse over the years and is very painful. If anyone wishes to vent……feel free to message me or leave a comment.  I’m a great listener! Just try to keep it clean.